One of the gifts of this pandemic has been more time spent at the dinner table without the rush to clean up or plan for the next day. Here, something beautiful has emerged.

I have always considered myself an “in-person” kind of person. Connecting with someone face-to-face and feeling the energy of a group of people in the same room inspires me. For this reason, anything online has never been a big draw for me - until now.

When I grew up, we lived on a street with over sixty kids and I had so many friends to play with. The woods were like our backyard. We did things together as families. There was a strong sense of community. It was a wonderful way to grow up.

I am grateful for the space I have had these past few weeks, to be and to feel. It has been a gift of growth to be the observer of what comes up.

Something I have been curious about lately is, what is it like to be a child right now as we navigate through this pandemic? What is going through a child’s mind?

Last week I went for a walk on the beach. It was such a beautiful day. Picture perfect.

As I was sitting on the sand looking at the open sky and water, sadness spontaneously came to the surface. Tears started rolling down my face. There wasn’t a story attached to my feelings, it just was.

How are you doing?

It’s an interesting time right now. We are being called to adapt to a new reality, and the extra tricky part is, there’s no guidebook for us to follow.

We are witnessing an unprecedented moment in time. There is so much uncertainty and fear in the world right now. Things are changing fast. We are inundated with information and while trying to remain calm and in the present, it can be challenging.

It is never too late; we are never too old to awaken to more of who we are.

On February 29th, I celebrated 56 years on this planet. That makes me 14 years old in leap years! And as I write this, I am going through a huge transformation.

When I share with you it is from my own experience.

For years I have shared how to be with emotions. I don’t believe I have talked much about how to be with physical pain. I am now because I now have the experience.

Many people come to me for coaching when they are going through a huge change in their life or realize things aren’t working. After trying to hold the pieces together for too long, they can’t do it anymore.

For many of us, the quest for perfection is constant and is often so deeply engrained in our thought patterns and behaviours that we don’t notice how much control and influence it has over our lives.

What I love about my experience of consciousness is that it feels so organic; naturally changing and shifting, beautifully alive.

Last week was a tough one. I experienced a lot of grief, some sadness, anger, and a sense of loss – all surfacing out of the blue. It was hard. 

It’s interesting to witness the evolution of our soul and what we need or are attracted to at different times on our spiritual journey.

It’s the time of year when many of us pause and reflect on the year that’s passed and perhaps think ahead at what’s to come.  I’ve been reflecting a lot on my year. There were many beautiful moments and memories, incredible new opportunities, fun times, and challenging ones too.

I am writing this with deep gratitude for your overwhelming generosity, love, support, prayers, and kindness over the last few weeks. It gives me strength and provides healing on so many levels.

I’d like to share a bit more about my experience and holding on to inner peace.

I know many of you have heard the news by now and I wanted to provide an update. For those who haven’t, on Sunday October 27th at 3:30am a drunk driver crashed into the front of my home and drove into my living room, just a few feet from where I was sleeping.

Within the practice of mindfulness, the term “Let it go” (i.e. your thoughts, feelings, emotions, situations) is a common theme that comes up quite a bit.